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(2 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[02 Jun 2005|12:40am]
[ mood | Blah ]

I hate when I can't sleep. Sometimes it just doesn't make any sense to me. I've been awake for at least 20 hours now, I worked. Still, No sleep.

It happens in spurts. A week will go by where I can't sleep at all. Then the next couple of weeks. I sleep like a baby.

Does anyone else experience this? I know it's not brought on by stress, because well, I don't stress very often. Any advice would be cool.

Everyone is Graduating this week. I would be too if it wasn't for one person. I finally figured out my greatest mistake.....Jessica Zapata. BIGGEST FUCKING MISTAKE OF MY LIFE. No, I don't regret it. It just wasn't the right thing to do. We all learn from mistakes so...You know.

So many people seem to just fade out of my life. Cycling through the long list of people that I know, I realized that I don't really know any of those people anymore. That's kind of sad.

What else. What else. Nothing.

I guess this will be the end of my update.

(1 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[04 May 2005|02:11pm]
[ mood | Good ]

Your Birthdate: May 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.

The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.

There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.

Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.

You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.

You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive.

You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

(3 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[31 Mar 2005|10:04pm]
[ mood | Contemplative ]

First things first, let me tell you that I watched the movie Party Monster last Weekend. Great movie. But even more so. Amazing Book. I picked up the book only 3 days ago. It's finished now.

And after finishing the book. I find myself listening to KeokiClash. I will tell you that I appreciate this album more than I ever have. And if any of you know me. Keoki is my ALL TIME FAVORITE DJ. Has been for quite some time. ( A couple of years)

So, if anyone enjoys a good story about insane drug use, and truely...We'll call them Unique people. I suggest Party Monster by James St. James.


My poor Chelsea. She had her Wisdom Teeth pulled today, all four. Ouch. But to tell you the truth. If I ever have to get it done. I'm more afraid of the bill then the pain.


On another completely different note. I'm thinking about quitting my job. I know I know. I won't. But, I'm still thinking about it. More than I have ever before.

I just honestly feel that I can be doing something better. Then stocking shelves for eight, plus, Hours a day. Although I'm not sure what I want to do right now. At all. I don't know if I want to continue on with trying to find some sort of job? Or. Doing something completely different. I suppose we'll see.

But. On the note of work. I do still work there. And have to be there at seven in the moring. Goodnight.


(1 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[17 Mar 2005|04:49pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I really think I'm going to try and start using this more again. I need some sort of ..... I don't know what the word I'm looking for is...Fuck it.

But yeah, I'll try and update more.

I don't have much to say at the moment, I've only been home for an hour.

I'll update later.

-Richie....Rock You Like A Hurricane...

(Thirst For Power)

[16 Mar 2005|02:10pm]
[ mood | Good ]

Life has been good lately, I know I have updated in what I think is a couple of months.

- Work is still shitty, I was offered a Full Time Postiton but now it just doesn't seem like it's going to happen...suck.

-Haven't been to any parties lately, been partying just not at a party..You know.

-Chelsea and I are still together, We've been together for 9 months now, That doesn't seem right to me. It feels like way longer than nine months. That could be due to the fact that before we started going out we hung out everyday.

- I'm thinking about buying Turntables again. These new CD's that I got last night are fucking awesome...

-I'm going to buy more CD's tommorow.


I got a new Cell Phone...978-502-2729. Give me a ring!


(2 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

Time for an Update. [12 Jan 2005|09:53pm]
[ mood | None or Other. ]

So many things have already changed with the new year. I'm an Uncle, Plans for moving out are becoming clear, and a bunch of other shit that's not really too important.

Life sure has mellowed a lot though.

I find myself sitting at home, because all my friends have shit to do like Be a Father or Work. Which sucks. But, oh well.

Going to Dance Til Dawn on Feb. 26th. Anyone wanna come?

I've been working almost 45 hours every week. I'm starting to get sick of it.

But yeah, I have to work tommorow. I think I might re-do my journal, and start using it more. Wipe out my friends list and all my entries and start new. I don't know.

I'm fucking Exhausted.

(2 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[14 Dec 2004|09:01pm]
[ mood | Satisfied ]

Well, It's been a long time since I've even updated anything. At all.

I've been working a mad lot as of late. It sucks, but it gives me something to do.


Acid is the most unrelenting drug ever.


I wish I had more friends. I need some variety. It's not so much I'm getting sick of people. I just wish there were new people.


I want to go to a show, so bad. I'm thinking about hitting up the next MSI show. That would be fucking awesome. They were amazing when I first saw them.


Christmas is coming up soon. I have most of my shopping done. Then New Years. Who wants to throw a party? Anyone? Any takers at all?

Eh, I don't really have anything else to write. It's kind of weird. I used to write in here all the time, But now: it's all just kind of blank. Oh well.

- Richie

(1 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

So...How's everybody been? [17 Nov 2004|10:14am]
[ mood | awake ]

The last few weeks of my life have been pretty good.

Although I wish I could hang out with some people more often though.
There are so many people I haven't hung out with in so long.

It kind of makes me miss High School. Which is kind of sad.
It's all good though, I have a lot of friends in Night Scool too.

So yeah, if anyone wants to hang out like back in the day, Let me know and We'll get something going.

(3 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[29 Oct 2004|01:36am]
[ mood | apathetic ]


I just finished watching Se7en for the first time, It was good. Not what I thought it was going to be though.


Horror Prom this weekend. I'm excited. Going to party my ass off......


Wednesdays are now a good day



(1 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[06 Oct 2004|01:49am]
First update in a long long time. Not much to say tonight though. Kind of a shitty update if I do say so myself. Well......I don't know.

But I'm alive.

(3 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[24 Aug 2004|11:59pm]
[ mood | Blank ]

Is this what life is about? This trend? This repeating pattern.
This repeating pattern of what?

I'm not so sure anymore.
I'm not so sure of anything anymore.

My life, My decisions.

Happiness and Chemical Gateways?
I'm drawing blank...

Nothing accomplished.

Seeing my friends succeed in so many, ways where I have failed so many times.

I wonder sometimes. What's real? What is life?

I'm miserable, yet content at the same time..
Masochist maybe?

I don't know who I even am anymore.


(Thirst For Power)

[27 Jul 2004|10:22pm]
Somewhere, there is someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile. So, When you're lonely, Remember it's true, that somebody somwhere is thinking of you. So work like you don't need money, Love like you've never been hurt, and dance like no ones watching.

If there is anything I've learned from WEMF it's that.

(Thirst For Power)

[19 Jul 2004|09:58pm]
Yes, The time has come to Kiss the woman. I love the woman. I thought everyone should know this. WEMF is in only 3 days......3 fucking days. So,in other news. I have'nt been up too much. Just hanging out, and not doin' much of anything.

So this will probably be my last update until I get back from Ontario.....Wish me Luck!

(Thirst For Power)

W-W-W-W---WEMF! [18 Jul 2004|10:56am]

4 DAYS!!!!

(2 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

ROLL CALL! [14 Jul 2004|04:14pm]
[ mood | Excited ]

Alright, so who's going to WEMF next weekend?!

(1 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

Rebirth! [11 Jul 2004|01:02pm]
[ mood | Excited ]

Oh my god, here it is. It's official.

Next VOLUME event at THERAPY:

REBIRTH August 21
D:Fuse, Terry Mullan, DJ Venom, Empress
Elijah, James Miller Junior, Parallax, Soulclap
Skrilla, Phyer, Dan DeSumthn, Dan Nelsen
Curtis Grove, more TBA very soon...

I know I'm going. Who else?

(Thirst For Power)

[08 Jul 2004|01:35am]
I feel........Alive.

Now I can breathe again...

(Thirst For Power)

[06 Jul 2004|12:27pm]
[ mood | Alright ]

Since the Rave, I have realised. That I really don't have any liking for any foods containing a lot of salt anymore.


(4 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

Sometimes you just have to RELEASE [27 Jun 2004|09:52pm]
[ mood | Euphoric ]

Wow, what a fucking night. Let me tell you how things went down.

Tyler and Chelsea spent the night at my house on Friday, No big deal we rested most of the time for our big day.
The day comes we wait, Krystal shows up. We wait some more. We finally decide to leave.

So about 2 hours later, We find the club in Rhode Island. This was Club Therapy. Pretty new but a great venue. So we get into the club at Nine. We hang out for a bit Dance and do the usual. Then we find some pills....Singe Stack White Mercedes(sp?). The deal was simple we pay we get them. All 16 of them. So we split them up respectively depending on how much we pitched in to get them. Krystal got 2 free ones. It was her first time, so it had to be free. We all dropped our first ones around 10:00pm. Around 10:30 it was hitting us all but not how we wanted, so we dropped another. Chelsea went off for a bit and found us all a prize, More pills. This time they were Triple Stack Sunflowers. Now I know these pills. Very high grade shit. She said she wanted to save them, I understood and then I dropped another White Mercedes. Well, Let me tell you. I was rolling face after that. So now the time is about 11:30. We were all having a blast, but still were up for more.

So 12 comes around, with 6 hours left of the party. Tyler comes to me and says he needs 3 more pills...Why you ask? To sell them. So I gladly said sure thing as I peaked. So I give them to him, and this was much easier said then done. As the music took control of my body and all the lights just gleaming with happiness. Anyways, I give him his share of the pills. He comes back with $70, nice. So he leaves for a bit and comes back with 3 more Triple Stack Sunflowers. Holy hell. Between all of us, We had 5 White Mercedes left, as Chelsea also took two, and 9 Triple Stack Sunflowers. 1:00 comes all of us are rolling, With our pacifiers in our mouths, we danced. We danced in a celebration of life and of brotherhood. Love was in the air that night. It wasn't sexual though, It was beautiful. Guys could hug guys and tell them that they loved eachother, and no one would think anything of it.

1:30AM. Chelsea comes up to me, and kisses me, This was the most uplifting experience of the night. It could hear her thoughts, I knew exactly how she felt, I felt her emotion. It was beatiful. I didn't want it to end, but it did, and when it did. I had trouble standing up. I was so overwhelmed with joy that I almost fell to my knees and cried. She helped me up and brought me over to the corner, Where she handed me a Triple Stack Sunflower, I told her I loved her, because at that exact moment, I did. Without any doubt in my mind I loved this girl.
So I swallow down my new pill and go dance. I tried to get off the steps where we were hanging out, but I accidently stepped on this guy, I said "Sorry man" and I asked him if he was rolling, He said yeah a little but it was wearing off, So I reach into my bag, and hand him a White Mercedes, he swallows it stands up and hugs me. He said he'll pay me back later on. So off we went to dance. At this point any kind of sensation sent chills through my spine, everything was just so wonderful. Tyler comes back from dancing, so I follow to go smoke a butt. He hands me a triple stack sunflower too. So I swallow. After this pill kicked in, Well. I don't know how to explain it. You know those kids at raves, who molest the speakers and have pupils the size of quarters.....Well, That was me. Kissing Chelsea was still wonderful. The light shows were crazy, and just gleamed with ecstacy ((the emotion not the pill)). So the kid that I stepped on, comes up to me and hands me a pill....Payback from earlier. 100% Pure MDMA, He was charging people about $80 for one, and I got one for free.

Then we all danced, We danced the night away. Before I knew it, it was light out and the party was over. So we leave still rolling, with quite a few pills left over. Now I'm here, telling the world my story of complete utter happiness. I wish the night never ended.

But until next time, Be safe, Dance Safe.

-Richie Reckless

(1 Starved For Pain | Thirst For Power)

[18 Jun 2004|03:00am]
If anyone wants to actually lose weight, Let me tell you what you nedd.

A Playstation 2,
And a Dance Pad.

Fucking craziness....

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